The Path of the Soul

That's what I heard today when I was in Focus 10. I had a rather easy session, no major hickups, no swallowing urges. I got relaxed, calm and today I followed again my 'story line' into getting to Focus 10. It seems that Frank was right, one gets better results when imagining a storyline to get to Focus 10 instead of simply listening to Monroe's voice. The last few sessions I disrupted the pattern and simply did what Monroe said, but it wouldn't work that well.

I didn't see any 3D blackness, I had no vibrations or anything, I simply had my body very relaxed. I clicked out 1-2 times and came back very fast. At some point while being in a green meadow with 'lush green grass' as they say it, I heard a man's voice saying 'the movie didn't happen' (or that movie, or this movie', I'm not quite sure). It's like I was having a talk with that person and he was telling me in conversation. Then I focused my awareness again on being in that green grass. I felt I was really there, it was a great feeling. I'll have to explore that green valley or meadow when I'm doing the exercise again, it seems like a nice place to start the exploration from.

I've read yesterday a lot about Frank's phasing technique at the Astralpulse forum, and I've changed during my session today my technique. So instead of simply listening to Monroe's voice and imagining whatever he was saying, I was actively creating a space of my own with a full fledged start from the beginning into getting to focus 10 and running back to my energy conversion box.

I deviated slightly from the way Frank was doing it, and I need to learn to time everything based on the voice but so far the experience was great. I didn't doze off into the lala land so often like the last time, I was pretty much conscious all the time (I think my mind wandered off only 2-3 times when I was jolted back by Robert's voice) and everything seemed much better this time. I even have a butler called Stephen whom I give my physical garment to place in the box and then closing the box when I leave from there.

I can't put my finger onto what happened, but I enjoyed this time the experience much better. And towards the end my fingers and arms and part of my body really started prickling and tingling. The whole thing was like I'm here, and yet I'm not. I'll start using this technique from now on for getting into and being in Focus 10 when listening to the tape.

I've just pondered upon a major difference between working with the Gateway CD and any other regular meditation track, be it guided or free. When I usually meditate, be it with the Dick Sutphen CD, or the Om, or anything else, I do enjoy it, as I like meditating. However many times I feel like I have to do it, and throughout the session I catch myself thinking about 'when is the tape over, is it much left yet'? And sort of relieved when the 20 minutes or so are over.

Here, on the other hand, I can't wait to start every time, and even though it's a full 37 minutes track, every time I listened to it so far, I had this feeling that it's too soon over and I wanted to be still there, wherever I was, and not come back so soon. This was pure enjoyment, meditation felt more like enjoyable work, something that I would feel guilty if I didn't do.

I'm not sure why I feel this difference, but there I have it, and that's one reason why I'll continue with this for now instead of going back to regular meditating.

Yesterday was a really impossible day for practicing with the Hemi-Sync Cd. I have a neighbor who moved recently just above us so he was hammering and drilling exactly on top of my room. But I said I would give it a try nevertheless.

So I went to the bed, with the laptop on and headphones on (they do cover my ears fully but I can still hear everything in the outside world - anyone knows of a really good set of headphones that dumb down the external noise?) and I started the second track in the Wave I CD. I'm going to stick with this track until I perfect getting and staying in Focus 10. Only then I will move to Focus 12. I feel that getting a real astral projection is a long way ahead...

Anyway back on track, I was curious to see what results I get - if any - despite all the hammering from upstairs. Well at first I couldn't really concentrate (or relax actually) but eventually I found myself going from dream to dream - only Monroe's voice was getting me out of these when we was speaking again. He was basically jolting me out of these. It's funny how I slipped into this dream state at least 5 times during the 35 or so minutes...By the time the exercise was over, I felt like only 10 minutes passed and there he was, counting from 1 to 10 to get me back to the normal state. How did I lose track of time so far and so often? I was not even tired...This for sure was a different experience from what I felt the day before doing the same exercise...